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> Aside from blogging, I'm also listening to "Blame It" by Jamie Foxx AND doing my NASC 3  assignment (Physics of table tennis). By the way, I love Jake Gyllenhaal in the music video.

> I want to learn how to customize this Livejournal account!

> Will watch Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen tomorrow with my Aunt. :)

> Starting to feel sad 'cause Bindi will leave for Guam on the fourth.

> I should be sleeping.

> Would have liked to join the UPLB Perspective (Kuya Arbeen, the new EIC and my former LTS groupmate, asked me last Friday to take the exam. Apparently, they were running out of editorial staff.) but as much as I would like to help, the thought of my untouched thesis proposal is holding me back...

> So many issues, so scattered the thoughts.

I love the song. But which one is the better version?

I saw John this afternoon.

I was walking with a friend when she suddenly nudged me and asked "Is that John?"
I looked up and saw him walking beside a long-haired girl.

I have long forgotten about John. It has been two years since we stopped talking to each other. And I still don't know the reason why.

Now, I saw him again, face to face. And he smiled at me. He remembered me. I returned the gesture. I did not even answer my friend's question.

And that's it. For the second time, we continued on our lives, no explanations whatsoever on why we decided to walk apart, widening the distance.

If I was standing on the balcony
And you were walking down below
I'd feel rather depressed and out of place
And lonely just to watch you go
If you were swinging from the highway overpass
Within the western hemisphere
I'd feel rather afraid and insincere
If you began to disappear

If I was walking through a sad art gallery
And you were driving through the night
I'd feel rather alone and ill at ease
Beneath the brilliant showroom light
If I was flying on a plane above your town
And you were gazing at the sky
Somehow I'd feel intact and reassured
If you began to wave goodbye

-Fuzzy Blue Lights, Owl City

Honored.

Saw some of my long-time-no-see friends last night.
And it suddenly hit me--I've changed so much yet I remained the same.

On the brighter side of last night, I had so much fun at Ate Noelle's house. :D  It completely refuted the saying "the more, the merrier". Though I hope we're more complete next time.
Still waiting for the pictures to be uploaded. :D

It was raining the whole day and my fellow ACB interns were getting sleepy after lunch. 

Sleepy Roxy: Bakit ganun? Umuulan na nga, may nangangagat pa sakin? (referring to insects)
Jane: E 'di ba 'pag umuulan mas maraming insekto?
Roxy: Huh? Eh 'di ba dapat natutulog yung mga yun?

Ok ka lang Roxy?  Haha.

Sigh. Internship at the ASEAN Centre for Biodiversity (ACB) is great! Working in an office surrounded by trees and crickets and birds somehow clears my head. Plus, the temperature makes everything so serene, especially earlier while we were walking among the trees and clutching our umbrellas against the misty rain. I think we literally ate within a cloud (oo, ulap!) because everything seemed so foggy. I almost felt the diwatas watching us from the Forestry trees haha.

Ok, I have to go now. Dinner time! My family's already calling. I'll continue blogging later. Thank God I got into the mood again. 

   

 

Please get your copy. :D






Gawa namin (Roxy, Maren, Jane, Yuri, Angie, Noelle, Sherry, Aoy, Ive, Sir Harold, Sir Robert) yan! :)

PROUD ME. ^^,

Available at Jericho's Bakery, Baan Thai, Mer-Nel's Cake House (Grove), Store near Agapita, and Lola's newspaper store near KFC...

Matuto nang magbasa ng dyaryo! :D

Right now, I want to repeat the "B" word that I always hear from Maren.

I feel like a crazy person who is aware of his craziness. Doesn't make sense but that's the closest thing I can think of to what I'm in now. When I got home today, I wanted to cry but I can't.

Having a weak heart is so hard. Now I understand why some people settled at the bottom. It means they're safe.  

"Lamay"
by Noelle Baldrias

It was Earth Hour at that time (UP made it mandatory to turn off the electricity). Light came from Dora's flash.
Notice that I'm in the same chair (see April 1st entry).



"Lugaw"

I've been wanting to write a lengthy post these past few days but something's always holding me back. It's such a shame because I learned A LOT of lessons that I would like to share.

Maybe I will soon, but not this time. I need to organize first.


I'm just...all out of words.

(Convenient, right?)

There's no more time to brood--I might as well condition myself to a more positive summer.

is when you are trying your best to lessen your limitations,

yet others are still affected.

And to top it off, these limitations are pressed,

and you are still affected.

--isinulat ng isang bangag at gutom.

I don't just want rant/complain or comment on today's happenings. I want to earn from it too. .
I also need this for one of my subjects. T.T

I badly want to sleep but stress won't let me.

When you already have an inkling that it is the right thing to do, then DO IT.
Don't hesitate. Disregard second thoughts.

That is why I admit, I was wrong. And I am so sorry. :(

Waah! Sorry...I really hate bad manners... X-(

I feel so bad for not getting that --- ---!!!

Recently (well, over the holidays, actually), I had a very heavy realization. This prompted me to answer "Be more responisble" to our SPCM 1 attendance question "What's your new year's resolution?"

Because over the holidays, I realized I am nearing 20. This is not really shock about the age--it's more of a shock for the things that I am expected to be able to do.
As though to emphasize that, the people I had been relying on my whole life started to rely on me big time (I think they haven't realized it yet--they all just seem to be flowing with time!). Suddenly there were so many non-verbal expectations from relatives, parents, friends, and a whole lot more.
Is this what it feels becoming a real adult? Because now, I think in  transition phase, where some things are just confusing, especially every time I fail to do something.  After a mistake, the air at first is like "It's okay. Everybody makes mistakes." And then, figuratively speaking, it gets cold.

At first, it was not yet clear to me, what I was realizing. Then one December night last year, while my sister and I were preparing for bed, I voiced out "Bakit ang hirap na ngayon?" Maybe the words finally escaped my reluctant subconscious. And then my sister said the exact words I realized I had been dreading to hear: Kasi malaki na tayo. Hindi na tayo bata.

Of course, I've been aware that someday--someday--I would be a full-fledged, responsible, anything-can-do adult (butterfly? Haha.) But I was not prepared of its nearness. Of the appetizers that I had been receiving. That it would come, just a after a short passing of time from now. 


Two bad things happened today. All I can say is that one was literal, the other was, well, transitional.
Because of bad thing number two, my old self was suddenly talking about failures and losers. But, thanks to that holiday realization, I managed to hold back my tears. I thought of the working class, the tricycle drivers, the marketplace vendors, the CEOs...

There's another thing currently bothering me--a very itchy throat. At first, I saw it as another burden to my 19-year-old responsibilities and expectations. But surprisingly, it turned out to be my stimulant. Irritating though it may be, I suddenly found myself working with more effort. I suddenly had this drive to overcome the now petty things such as ailments and coughs.

So I suddenly became a sadist. Not really. The coughing still annoys me. But thankfully, it does not hinder my will to keep going.

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By the way, just because I wrote this "responsibility" blog, doesn't mean I don't have the right to post "screw this" blog entries.

Wala pa akong nagagawa.
Sa Chapter One.
Sa Informative Speech Plan.
Sa 124 exercises.
Sa Vision Board.

OMG.

"Ang batang masipag, paglaki, pagod."-- Ai-ai, Ang Tanging Ina Niyong Lahat.
O.o